It's friday night. We've made it to evening. We have alot of choices to make and alot of options. We aren't sure what to do.
I've been very panicky this evening about making the right choice. This isn't what glasses to get, to try hearing aids or not, none of those things. this is huge major GI system, major life issue, etc etc. Once we make a choice there is no turning back. Once we pick a road we can't turn around. that terrifies the hell out of me.
i want a magic wand and i want it now. i want to kick and scream and throw a fit. i want to run in circles. i want to cry. i want to freak out. i want it to stop. i want time to stand still.
we think we will have to go to bed and get back to thinking in the morning. i don't know if i can handle it anymore. we've gotta take a break.