Saturday, February 6, 2010

saturday evening update

We are still here. Its just been a long short few days. I've been trying to get everything quickly situated here at home. House cleaned, laundry done, packed, etc... So far I've got the house cleaned and the laundry almost finished. Tomorrow i've gotta rush and get everyone packed.
Eli has been fussy the last few days, and throwing up a ton. He's definitely kept me busy. The kids are good, getting ready to move back to their grandparents tomorrow.
bob and i are exhausted. physically, mentally, and emotionally. i'm not looking forward to monday at all and its coming soooo fast. i'm so scared for mr eli.
everyone keeps telling us how strong we are and how amazing we are doing and how organized it all is. i sooo don't feel like that. i feel like i'm falling apart inside. i am constantly trying to hold tears back and i just want to curl up on the floor of my closet and turn off the lights and close the doors. i want to scream, scream like i never thought possible.
i will try and get some pictures up tomorrow, and another quick update.
love to all.

1 comment:

Denise said...

Sending you big huge hugs. Praying all goes well. I know it's hard for you but know that you are not alone. A stranger from far away is praying and thinking about you right now...and will continue to do so!

You are stronger than you think. You are doing amazing!