Monday, February 2, 2009

no more sugar coating

I have tried thru all of this to not bring any public issues onto my blog and to remain polite and respectful to all parties invovled but to be honest I've had enough for the fake smiles and bullshit. This is my blog and I will say as I please, since others seem to have no problem doing that.

My children are my world. I would NEVER trade them for anything. I would never call them a dilemma or think that they get in the way of my personal life. I have my children with me 52 weeks a year. I'm up in the middle of the night with a sick child, I'm doing homework, there when they are upset, heal owies, fix toys, arrainge schedules, argue thru IEP's and school systems so my child gets the best, I'm the one who does it all. I'm the behind the scenes driving force of EVERY single thing in their life. They could care less. Heck many times they complain about it. But I do it because I'm their mom, their parent. It is my JOB. It requires 100% of my time, focus, attention, energy, love, etc. When I had unprotected sex, I KNEW there was a chance I would have a child. I still chose to do it, and have loved every single moment of my childrens life. That was a MUTUAL choice, between 2 people. I'm so sick of the crap. I'm sick of having to be the only one to step up to the plate. I'm absolutely sick of it.
So I know for many of you, you have no clue what I'm talking about, I know some of you are amazed that I've held off this long on saying something, and then i know there are some of you who know every intimate detail of it all. Oh and I know there is atleast one of you reading this right now pissed off beyond belief. that makes 2 of us.
more to come.


Jodi said...

I am one with no clue. I just wanted to say that unless someone has walked in your shoes, they should hold passing judgement. I hope things are going well for you all in Wichita! STAY POSITIVE!!

Brian said...

That post wasn't aimed at the kids.

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~* N *~ said...

I agree with you Heather... I also can totally see why you are upset. I would be angry too.

CNH said...

NO idea what you're talking about, but I'm so sorry you're dealing with stress upon stress at the moment. I hope it calms down soon. HUGS