Where's Heather????

Sorry it's been so long since I've blogged. So many things have been going on and I've been so tired on top of it all.
For starters I'm working. I'm in my 2nd week of training. I'm working at Tmobile customer care. My hours are horrible. Right now during training it's Sunday thru Thursday 11am to 7:45pm. I see Emily and Jace as they are leaving for school and the little 2 for a few as I'm getting ready. Then Bob keeps them up and I see them for about 15 to 20 minutes when I get home. It really sucks. I end up only getting to see the oldest 2 for a few hours friday evening and then saturday. It's screwed up my eating schedule as I'm at work for lunch and dinner but don't actually get breaks for all those meals. My schedule after training will be Tuesday thru Saturday 1:15pm to 10pm. I basically won't see my children at all on this schedule. As of now Bob has accepted a job with target and he will be working 4am until noon. So he and I won't see each other at all. He has an interview thursday for another job, but we shall see.
The biggest news in my life is this...Brian got laid off effective immediately friday. He is still getting his full pay, a severance package and unemployment. ALTHOUGH he has decided that I don't need any of this as I haven't been "good" and 500 other things he's said to me. He agrees to one thing and does another. Bob and I are scrambling to cover the child support money and the insurance that the children are now going to be losing. Since I have not been "good" I was even informed that he just "might not show up in KC". We were supposed to meet there in March to exchange the kids for spring break. He threatened to simply not show. Punishing the kids is clearly the best thing to do here. Go figure. I will not be going to KC now, because I refuse to put my children thru that. We shall see if he shows up here to pick them up. I will be hiring a lawyer, and will fight this if I have to. He has informed me that he knows "everyone" and that he has "everyone" here in Wichita watching Bob and I's every move and reporting back to him. He has informed us that he will make it impossible for us to get a job or find a home or do anything in this town. He says he will ruin us in this town. I can't imagine how bored "everyone" must be watching me drive too and from work and the grocery store. WOW. Such a boring time. So none the less I'm at the end of my rope. I feel as though I've been completely left to parent the children, with no support from Bri. I feel as though he can't get past hating me, and that he's letting that spill over to the children. I feel all that is going to happen is the kids are going to get hurt. And I will do everything I can to protect my kids. I will update as I know more.

The kids are doing good. They are loving school, and doing well. They have quite a bit of homework each week, which has been fine for Emily, but quite the fight for Jace. Ben is doing well, which is such a relief for me. Ariana is starting OT this next week, and we really like her new therapist. Again such a relief. I need to get pics up of the kids soon, I just haven't had time.

Like I said my stress level is high and Im not doing very well with any of this right now. I'm tired. I promise to try to keep up with the blog so everyone knows what's happening.
Oh and to "everyone" who's watching me, maybe we can do like a where's heather thing on my blog. that would be fun! when you see me atleast wave! :)